小小领悟

有时烦人的人
烦人的事儿
想要直接避开
反而不是上上策

要让自己expose
才会学会去面对
才会学着如何对付这种浪费别人时间的
人
和状况
然后才会immune
不会动气
百毒不侵

郁闷

沟通 果然不是把话说出来就可以了
你不知道对方想的是什么
抱着的是什么心态
相信的是什么
主观客观的又是什么
误会这种东西 真的好讨厌
尝试对遇到的所有人好
然而因为是人 本来就不是单纯的生物
似乎单纯的想对别人好不是件容易的事儿
是不是不要跟人有无谓的接触
就可以免除不必要的误会？
惯性的冷漠 的确为自己省了不少麻烦
然而 人生的意义应该不是这样的吧
要怎么拿捏 不让别人做令自己不喜欢的事儿
却又不会无故得罪别人呢？
这种艺术
真的
很难
领悟

我做错事了吗？
还是方法用错了吗？
唉 认错也不是什么
叹的是有时候错在第三者扭曲了你的原意
把事情搞砸了 而你必须收拾烂摊
我说
只要不是杀人放火的事儿
在没有人了解你体谅你信任你的时候
没关系
自己相信自己的判断力就好
没有东西
比这个更自保了

无题

好像好久没有在这里打字了
不是不要update 不是没有想法 也不是忙到什么酱
总觉得 静下来的时候可以想很多 打开电脑却像欲言又止酱
一切似乎变得不太有意义 过期了的情绪 也已经没那份心情recall了

这星期不去游泳了
我要窝在家
咀嚼一下
消化一下
反省一下
沉淀一下

Am I able to do this again??

I learned piano since 5.5 y/o so I shall have at least
13 yrs+ of practice
(dare not say "experience" cz im not expert enough)...
Yet I don't call myself a Pianist
cz to my own definition...
Piano Learner
Piano Player
Pianist
Performer
all are of different levels
and Im just Piano Player level though I have gotten Performer's Cert.
This video is not of very good quality...but it's still visible...
and it's the MOST hardworking stuff which i insisted to do before i came to Spore..
cz i put effort and heart to practice everyday...ignoring the comments from others
(according to my family...it is NOISY :x)
Just for sharing~

It is not a very awesome work
compared to those which i usually watch fr Youtube...
at my age...with my level...and the time taken to practice...
but From my heart..."Will I be able to play like this again?"
This is the MAIN reason i videoed
to remind me what i've been capable
and there's no reason why im unable...in the future
before i tried hard on any single thing

AGREE?
It is a shame
for those who have the skill to do a thing but not fully utilising it
and give up without trying hard enough
...compared to those who have lost the ability to do something due to disease
and yet still trying hard to do something useful..
This is what I learnt from <1リツトルの涙> : )

Shumatsu

星期六和星期日
一样是工作休假日
一样是二十四小时
一样的天空和太阳
可是
很奇怪
怎么催眠
怎么不去想
星期日就是星期日
怎么都无法在星期日拥有星期六的心情

我的星期六
就是每个星期期待了很久
总想要做点平时不能做的事儿的一天
我的星期日
脑袋放空 随便做一些不切实际的幻想
或随意接触文字 风景 图片 颜色 铃声 风的感觉 太阳的味道
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你的周末过得如何 : )

办公室文化

我很好奇 为什么有人可以窃窃私语到..
就算连很靠近都听不到她说什么
只看见口型??
呵呵 这不是咬耳朵那种
而是光明正大面对面讲话
在你的视线范围内
不怕你看
不怕你听
随你的便
可是就是在很近的距离
只见嘴唇动
却听不见声音
高超啊 : D
说办公室政治好难听咧
办公室文化比较轻松吧
我也只是个
一边工作一边调剂生活的小妹 : P

P/s: 公司"好吃好住"吼？每次进厕所必定有人在里面大便! XD

I am...

So Far So Good = D

Time flies and it has been one month im working in S-Land and to my surprise...... im coping well compared to what i expect before. I mean...it isn't hard to live in a country which has no much differences in terms of culture compare to my own mother land...(not much but many differences though :x) yet...it's still a new life to me. And I asked myself when can I optimistically tell the others that im So Far So Good when i was in my previous firm few months ago. Im always envy of ST saying So Far So good when we are far apart chatting over the phone few months ago frankly : ). Even if it's just a simple phrase to utter but yet, few months ago I didn't have the confidence to do so.
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But now, let me declare, I'M SO FAR SO GOOD!
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Living alone isn't scary and lonely as I thought...I meet up with coursemates weekly...I have good teamates in my workplace....I do mistakes and I learn from mistakes and I try not to do the same mistakes again....I happily go to work everyday without ANY negative feelings at the moment, although i do, like all of the other working people...still looking forward to weekends : P
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I actually have many thoughts...it seems like they appear every now and then when im travelling to and fro in MRT but, they flee when I came back home sitting in front of my lappy. Sigh...and I write less...cz I dun have my diary with me...which has been my habit since 10 years ago....make me feel like im not using my brain to think recently....uuh don't like this kinda feeling....
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By the way, have you think of what's the meaning of life?or rather, what's YOUR purpose of life? It sounds like a nerdy question....but, I think it is really worth to think about it...as early as possible. It's not what you wana do nor what you wana achieve etc. ...I'm talking about: What's the PURPOSE of your life. So far, I don't see any good answer answering this question yet. Anyone?
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Ta!
Enjoy the remaining 1/24 of weekend and looking forward to the next~
Tomorrow is a new week to start off and fighting again.
(Surprisingly...I don't have Monday's Blue here : P)

おやすみ!

好人的矛盾

MRT上有贴着让位给孕妇老人小孩的告示牌
未免众目睽睽之下的罪恶感 每次有位子坐的话都尽量不坐箭头指着的Reserve Seat
感觉上那种位子坐了要提心吊胆
不然一个不留神有孕妇站在你面前而
自己又没察觉到(因为有位子坐时我都在看书)没有让位给人家
除了自己很guilty以外也不懂会不会给别人骂:x
其实有时候也很矛盾的
如果说你孕妇只站几个站就下车 而我却是要搭达半个小时至一小时才到目的地
好不容易找到位子 那么是要让别人坐让自己脚酸 还是对自己好一点呢？矛盾...
说孕妇不多又蛮多下的:x几乎每天都可以看到
孕妇 是不是都expect人家让位给自己呢
孕妇在没怀孕的时候是不是也可以将心比心呢
吼
好人呐 还是轮流当好了
不然我也来假扮孕妇一下 塞一肚子衣服搭MRT
看下有没有人会让位给我?
开玩笑: P

Life is Keep On Adapting

Life is like a classroom...

Life is making things happen...

Life is KEEP ON ADAPTING!

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3 weeks of working life...im now more adapted to S-land life...Recalling the 1st few times I came to S-Land for interviews..body chekup and all those employment stuff...I have NO good impressions on the people here cz their face are SO "LC" and I don't feel comfortable walking here. And before I officially came and start work, I actually felt more homesick and was kinda reluctant to come over (: P)...but yet...making this decision...I am taking it as a training for me to be more independent.....I wana make myself no one to rely upon and force myself to face and settle most of the things by myself...make my life more meaningful by trying new things rather than enjoying what I am having....make myself no point of return and no where to complaint but likewise improving EQ (as what Shi Ting said : p ) and become a real adult......I can't live under the wings of my Dad & Mum forever right? Distance...absence...the things you previously have it easily but no longer having it now, really make me think alot and more appreciate to what I have...

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WALKING ALSO NEED TO ADAPT ahh~

Well...it took me weeks to adapt S-land's walking style. You might feel that those people here walk very fast as what usually see from TV showing people walking in HK. I thought i was right too cz for the first few rounds i came to S-Land and walk through the MRTs and undergrounds...the sound of the high heels...almost can compose a song lol....you can hear many many MANY footsteps kikokikokikokikokikokikokkkkkkkkkkkkk like everybody was so busy and walk so fast......BUT then I was wrong...S-Land people walk SO SLOW!!! When I started work and walk through MRTs and undergrounds everyday, I only realised that the perception of S-Land people are walking fast was just an illusion.....THEY WALK DAMN SLOW somehow blocking fast-walking people like me....sambil jalan sambil playing with their iPhones....or read newspaper....or just simply walk like so relax goyang here and there......the song-composing high heels sound......just because there are MANY many people walking, and NOT because they walk fast-_-........and somewhat...those people walk as though YOU are blocking their way but in fact they are the one blocking people's way..........I used to give way to people when they are walking towards me and somehow I realised that everytime I give way to people, some of them are like frustrated as though you give way to them BECAUSE you blockED their way.......now I know the "technic"........NO NEED TO GIVE WAY to anybody cz people will automatically move away from you lol.....

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The second thing to adapt is to eat outside. It's actually kinda sad for me looking at many S-Land people eating outside almost every meal. Many of the landlords won't allow heavy cooking at home too. And now I continue my "meal assignments" as what I did in Lvp.....not so terror like those Japanese calculating calories for every meal laa...but no fast food for me haha....

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Third thing to adapt...'ve been living with family for the past 20 over years on landed house....now im staying in a city with full of HDB flats....frankly speaking the 1st time i step into S-land...my 1st impression when i looking out the window in KTM....the 1st phrase appear on my mind was "OH MY GOD-_-"............and i used to talk like kids telling stories after class to their parents although im already 20++++.....now i need to call back for storry telling so indirect : \
and i've been sleeping alone in my own room and now need to adapt staying with others with different habits......

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But life is like that la.....human life wouldn't be progressed if we refuse to adapt and living creatures adapt to environment in order to survive since countless centuries ago....that's the universal rule right? So...whoever...bear with me on my adaptations......soon i will be able to integrate to the lifestyle here and build up the confidence in performing in non motherland.
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By the way I just swam 2000 metres yesterday and i feel so damn good!!! Last year still manage to swim 20x100 metres without stopping (of course I breath la).....this round...although it's still 20x100 metres but....i gotta stop every 2 or 3 laps cz i didn't swim for almost one year since before going to UK...I couldn't express my eagerness and excitement until i even talked to my ownself "That's the pool! Thaat's the poooooool!!" when im walking towards the pool from MRT yesterday XD
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Well....looking forward to next weekend: )

MRTizen窃窃私语

国民叫Citizen…在报纸上看到网民叫Netizen…每天搭MRT又算不算是”MRTizen”?
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在新加坡的MRT上几乎人人手中握着iPhone 和黑梅，屡见不鲜。但是，把iPhone和黑梅掉在地上甚至掉进快铁底下Platform Gap的大意机主也大有人在。几乎隔几天在地铁上就看见这样的事情发生。通常机主都是发愣一秒才缓缓把手机拾起，再不然就是悄悄拿起来，一副想sayang却又不好意思sayang的样子小小声的”sssss”...人比iPhone更痛: P
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听说目前苹果在研发3D眼镜，让iPOd和iPhone用户可以享受立体视觉效果。吼…不久的将来，一大早上班，是不是就可以看见一大堆人戴着奇怪的眼睛在MRT上…好奇怪的画面…有机会拍下那样的画面一定upload上来: P
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是有一点纳闷，人真的有需要那么无时无刻的把自己跟网络联系在一起吗？的确，网络手机的崛起确实让许多工作和生意上的来往方便快捷许多，可是仔细一瞧，也有许多手握黑梅iPhone的人其实只不过在玩game-_-……人是很应该与时并进的啦，但若只是纯粹的随波逐流，就不敢苟同了…

Greetings from Singapore

Hello world! Finally I get to online~has been away for 2 weeks cz the line wasn't set up yet. It's like being isolated from the world for 2 weeks : P.....Im not that kinda cannot survive without internet...but can say it's quite boring where although I have prepared many things to be done without having access to internet...but still... living alone...no matter how well is your planning...when you are too long to be with yourself without communicating to anyone....sooner or later will go mad ah~

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Have been 2 weeks in Singapore....started a new job for 2 weeks....workload still manageable.....homesick? surprisingly not so intense compared to the time before i came to Singapore.....In short life here is just similar to my life in Liverpool....walk alot everyday....shop n carry alot of goodies....Just that...in Liverpool I have lotsa friends living together and share the sweet and sour together....There's a gang of coursemate here so not so dead la...but still...it is much more "peaceful" compared to at home and in Liverpool (which is not so good to me cz i used to talk alot)....

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The days without internet....the only entertainment for newbie like me was observing people in MRT.....Not much time left for working days cz it's tired after whole day spending energy with computer+walking+squeezing with lotsa people.....and thus i usually slept VERY early like about 10.00pm or 10.30pm....

So now...I shall have more updates soon~firefly is back: P

Transition Period

Hello~I'm at home now but gonna go over LionCity again
in 2 hours time~
Uuh...I just reached home yesterday>.<
Just a quick update before I have to temporarily dissappear
in blogosphere...
Nah this is my "house" in Singapore...
Im staying ALONE in such a huge 3+1 Hdb for the 1st mth
...so empty eh
Btw...if you notice...i called it House instead of home and

you might be wondering my awkward saying bout
"going back to house" instead of "going home"
cz i Remembered one of the section in Companies Act...
something about Loan to director to purchase a Home...
House can be many and any...
BUT Home can only be one and only one : D

Im kinda satisfy with my room in Spore...just hope that
I will have clean and neat housemates in the near future...
5 minutes walk to MRT and shopping complex...so nice..
but of course....

It cannot be compared to my Warm and Lovely
Pinky-Peachy Lil Jap Style room in KL~.~

Uuh im gonna MISS my room MUCH!!!!>.<
I cannot bring my soul food (the books...comics..magazines..)
I cannot play piano anymore (almost 20 yrs of experience depreciating>.<)
I cannot see those who I live with for 23 yrs+ so often T_T
I cannot.......
There're too much thing I have to temporarily forgo..
But I believe this will be my precious experience to
appreciate life and love...friendship and hardship
a good opportunity to understand life better..
arghhh...i got so much to tell but ...but....it's time to leave...

p/s: Im no longer this look anymore : P
Many Singaporeans and passengers in train thought that im student X P
If you see a "childish look" OL in MRT...probably that's me haha

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Til the owner fix the net line...Im off..
It's not realistic to hope that everything will be going on smoothly...
I just hope that I have and (if I don't have) build up the courage
to deal with every difficulty...This is good enough for me liao : )
Perhaps in the absence of internet this period
I shall improve my foreign laguages very soon hah!

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p/s: Dad has just retired before the 1st day of my work...hope so he can take good rest and enjoy his after-retired life.....Do whatever he feels he wana do but has got no time to do previously...and....don't be so stubborn to eat too much la haha...